My Sweet Brielle Reaj,

I don’t know if words will ever fully explain the love I feel for you or the pain I carry in my heart. Before you were even here, you were already a part of me — a dream, a possibility, a tiny life that made me stop and think about the future in a different way.

I want you to know that my decision did not come from a place of not loving you. It came from fear, from circumstances, from trying to survive and make the best choices I could with what I had at the time. Sometimes life puts us in situations where there is no easy or perfect answer — only the one we believe we can live with.

You will always be my baby. You will always matter. Your name, Brielle Reaj, lives in my heart as a reminder of love, strength, and the complexity of being human. I imagine your softness, your smile, the way you might have looked at me. I imagine holding you, protecting you, guiding you.

I carry both grief and gratitude — grief for the life that could have been, and gratitude that you touched my spirit even in such a short time. You changed me. You made me think deeper, love harder, and understand my own strength in ways I never had before.

I hope wherever your little soul is, you feel peace. I hope you feel my love surrounding you. I hope you know you were never unwanted — only caught in a moment where life was bigger than me.

Forever your mother,

With all my love.